Blessing is a blessing. Hey, that’s her name, isn’t it? *chuckle* Blessing is deep, constantly scribing into the wee hours of the night and then going into reclusion in the daytime. Well, at least online (yeah, I see you gurl). She’s strong and beautiful and knows it, but somehow, has issues showing it. I’m still in the process of getting to know her. You can start here…
“I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge. That myth is more potent than history. That dreams are more powerful than facts. That hope always triumphs over experience. That laughter is the only cure for grief. And I believe that love is stronger than death.”
― Robert Fulghum, All I Really Need to Know I Learned in Kindergarten
Just found the quote above, lately I’ve been thinking a lot about hope, and letting it grow ever so slowly in my heart. I think to survive this world we need to have hope, lots of it, hope in ourselves, hope in the world, hope in our faith. I like the name Hope, might name a daughter of mine that someday.
Spent last year in a rut, kept falling in and out of love with one person and got so tangled up in emotions I didn’t know I could have. But I’m not a fan of cycles so that one ended pretty quickly but I enjoyed it, I really enjoyed it, I never said thank you to him, and he’s probably reading this so thank you my love, thank you for showing me that I can be loved.
I also spent New Year’s Eve so high I thought I was floating on some distant planet but I managed to get to church just on time, (I walked from an area in North London to an area in North West) and I asked for a good year, every year is a good year I know but I WANT a good year, I need it, so I hope this year is one. (See I’m hoping things). I have a couple of mini projects in my head that I want to start and finish this year.
This year I became an official magazine editor, early days yet of course, it’s online and it’s the university paper but it’s my new baby and I’m going to work as hard as possible to bring it back to print. I like the idea of being an editor, I love editing, thought it was writing I was good at but I think I’ve found my niche per say in editing. So that’s this year’s big project, and I’m hoping upon hope that it is the one thing I don’t mess up, seeing as I’m so great at messing things up.
I think every year as I get older, (going to be 22 this year) I realise how little I know about myself, about what I like, what makes me happy, turns me on, all that good stuff and I’m old now so it’s probably time to find out about all that, and that’s the second project this year. This one is bound to go wrong in many places and many times but I want to be able to say I know something about myself by the end of the year.
I’ve lived in London for about 12 full years of my life, (lived in Nigeria and Italy too) and I’ve never really gone sight-seeing, mostly because I dislike tourists, and hate walking too much but I’m on a weightless journey so that doesn’t count anymore, and I need to better my people skills. So my final project for myself this year is to go out and see this magnificent city I live in, because there is nothing more beautiful than history and London is laden with a lifetime of history. Oh and I’m going to take pictures, lots of them, already ordered a camera.
This year I don’t know about doing the whole love thing again, that’s just scary, I don’t like roller coasters hate heights and love is one heck of a roller coaster, but if it happens, it happens I guess.So yes, here’s to 2013, may the good Lord fill it with lots of laughter, surprises, love joy and HOPE and I pray that you and yours have an incredible year.
“The road that is built in hope is more pleasant to the traveler than the road built in despair, even though they both lead to the same destination.”
― Marion Zimmer Bradley, ‘The Fall of Atlantis’