Jyte has a beautiful personality. I know this from her tweets and blog posts. I know I’m right. See the proof…
I have a plan; a list, written in my journal with sections and sub-sections and tasks broken down into months and weeks and days (motivational speaker style). This is the first time I’m writing down my plans in any sensible order. Usually I just leave them in my head. 2014 is different.
I’ve spent the last two years talking. Being a guide even when I felt lost a lot of times. Teaching even when I felt ignorant most of the time. It’s been beautiful.
I was always prone to depression. I experienced the mother of black holes in late 2012. I woke up one morning, packed my bags, put off my phones and ran off for two weeks. I’m not sure if I quit or was fired after that. One of the highlights of 2013 was my former boss asking me to be his daughter’s godmother (so, yes, he forgave me finally).
When I returned I volunteered with a youth NGO in Otolo-Nnewi (Anambra State) because in a bout of self-righteousness I felt this need to give back. It’s been a humbling experience. It’s also been one of the best times in my life.
I’ve never had to look for a job and always followed the path of least resistance (I’ve just been blessed that the path always leads somewhere good). At some point last year I understood that I was hiding. As much ‘good’ as I was doing, I was shielding myself from rejection. I was afraid to put myself out there. I had carved my small corner and didn’t want to leave.
That’s all going to change this year. I’ve handed in my notice. I’m pressing the button.
‘Follow your passion and financial rewards will follow.’ 2014, I’m going to make sure it does.
Finances: This is a big one. I racked up some debts in 2013. I put it down to my inability to say no to family and friends. I’ve made a repayment plan. I’ve also started an untouchable savings account. I didn’t know saying no could be so hard but I’m on it.
Relationships: “Is he the one or shall we wait for another?” I laughed when my friend asked me this in December. Serial dater that I was (I never had my heart broken, thank God); someone and I met towards the end of 2013. We make each other laugh. We annoy each other too. It’s beautiful. We’ll make it better in 2014.
‘My phone is not landline. I will return missed calls when I see them.’ I’m going to be a better daughter, half-sister, sister and friend.
God and I: My walk with God has been up/down since I left school. I still have questions and I’m finding answers in 2014. Studying and living the word of God every day is my top priority. So is shutting up and listening to God.
Miscellaneous: I am going to read one book per week at least; allow my hair grow out; cry when I want to cry; volunteer at a home for kids with learning disabilities (still trying to locate one in Lagos); explore Western Nigeria; buy more books; cook more; procrastinate less; write more – I discovered my writer-self in 2013. In 2014 I am going to find the secret to writing stories of 1000+ words.
2014: I am going to live, love and learn.