Dusk 14: Menna

Yay, our first (sorta) anonymous post. So does this mean I can’t do a real intro? ūüė¶ Well intro is intro sha. This one na still intro :p I really like the clarity that came to me as this post unravelled, towards the end. I hope you enjoy it too…

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…I’m writin’ the future, Im writin’ it out loud
We don’t talk about the past
We don’t talk about the past, now
So Im writin’ the future, I’m leavin’ a key, here
Something won’t always be missing
You won’t always feel emptier…

-Paramore.

14 Janvier 2014,

Dear Menna,

Lol.. Baby girl! Whatchu doing? huh? how dare you put ¬†yourself out here? ¬†How dare You ¬†think that you can plan your future, your 2014? How dare you believe that 2014 would be different from the years before it??! When did you start having “new year resolutions” sef?!

Hmmm… Let’s see what you have here… *chuckles* …Such a list!

You think you’re gonna get into that masters programme at UI abi? And you believe that you would get a job if you don’t get in.. You done dey get liver o. A job where? In Media? In PR? In IR? Anywhere? ¬†Lol. How dare you!

Why do you think you believe that you’re gonna be speaking flawless, C2’ish French in 6 months? It took you about a year to learn the basics remember? And you still have no one to practice with. Lol. You kid.

And why would you even think that because you actually plan to make friends, you will? You’re giving, but can you put yourself out there long enough?! Ha! See?

Uhmm… What’s this thing again about removing yourself from under The Parents’ thumb?! You’re 24 today and still there! That’s saying a lot.. I mean, they’re gonna be paying your fees and struggling to make you comfy, no? And that tailoring school in February, who’s paying? Lol. Haha!

Dare you think Babe, that you’re gonna throw logic outta the window and have a go at your first real relationship ever?! Ha! I did not think so!

Aha! Here… ¬†You were thinking something like finding The God this year abi? after all these years of “going to church?” Lol. You don’t even believe that the family prayers go past the roof. Biko, rest!

You’ve spent¬†months, trying to perfect that idea that would change lives. And suddenly, you think in the next 12, you would actually have something cogent? lol.

…Ehen! last last, ¬†you think that shea butter thing would work for you? You think you can actually use that thing for a full year!?! Huhuhu.. Your skin is the least of your problems boo… Plus the hair you plan to cut.. Lol. How many times did you step in a salon to do this and fail already? You play too damned much, aunty.

Baby,  all you really would need in the coming year is Strength .

Strength to be happy especially when all else fails.

That bout of depression for a few months last year? That was because you had plans that failed. You were not strong enough to confide in anyone, and you did not have¬†the Strength to watch yourself fail, learn from your mistakes, move on and be happy…

Read more books,
Go out more,
Be more understanding,
Forgive easily,
Laugh truly,
Love Purely,
Confide in daddy and mummy,
Keep in touch with humans,
Confide in them.
Travel a bit more,
Live.
Listen to happy songs,
Tell them you love them,
Write.
Listen, talk more,
Sleep more,
Drink more water,
Excersie.
Little important things.

And I see you’re already rocking the new year! I mean, you’re actually writing¬†the future out Loud!¬†(albeit anonymously¬†and jagajagaly¬†*smh*)

…I found the perfect SoundTrack to your 2014 darling.

I Hope You Dance РLee Ann Womack

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder,
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger,
May you never take one single breath for granted,
GOD forbid love ever leave you empty handed,
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you’ll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance….I hope you dance.

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance,
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin’ might mean takin’ chances but they’re worth takin’,
Lovin’ might be a mistake but it’s worth makin’,
Don’t let some hell bent heart leave you bitter,
When you come close to sellin’ out reconsider,
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.
I hope you dance….I hope you dance.
I hope you dance….I hope you dance.
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along,
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone)

..Happy birthday, beloved!

Mwah!
Love,
Doubt & Hope.

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7 comments on “Dusk 14: Menna

  1. enajyte says:

    Kick doubt out. Keep hope.

    You had me smiling with that song. Beautiful. Thank you.

    Like

  2. hahishaa says:

    I like this.

    Like

  3. Aarinolaoluwa says:

    ūüėÄ

    Like

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