Day 23: Iengemdoo

Ladies and gentlemen, we have our second (sorta) anonymous entry. Wait, does my announcing it like that sorta defeat the purpose? :s Well sha, Iengemdoo (are you as tripped as I am that that’s not a made up name?) shares how she came to also feature on #30DaysOfHope so I’ll just leave her to it…

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“God wants to take the seemingly mundane messy threads of your life to weave something beautiful”

I read this a few days ago and I repeated it out loud to myself like a mantra. I knew without a shadow of doubt that 2014 would find me in better spirits.

You see 2013 was a year of finding myself. I had married and moved to a town I had never lived in before, I was also adjusting to my 24 hour job of being a Mother.  I asked myself a thousand questions. Did I want to be a stay at home Mom? Did I want to throw myself into my career and let someone else raise my child? Did I have a head for business? And if yes, what business would be profitable and even more importantly, would I enjoy doing it? These were the pertinent questions that rummaged through my mind endlessly.

On some days, I’m reminded that I am a trained Lawyer. I even registered my own Law Firm. However I realized to my delight that I rather enjoyed the corporate aspect of Law, maybe even property Law. I was by no means a litigation Lawyer. So what on earth was I going to do with myself?  I used to be an ardent writer, I would write and mail to numerous magazines for a small fee back in the day. I wrote articles for my University Law journal as well. So what happened to that girl???

And then I started baking. Yes. From watching “the great British Bake off” to “Cake boss “to  “Masterchef Australia”, my interest was piqued. At first I baked “test runs” for my husband. I found he wasn’t a very good lab rat as he always ate all my samples with a smile (Bless his heart) . So I moved to my neighbors… The more I baked, the happier I was.

Long story short, I got my first order during Christmas. I was stunned. From a casual hobby to being paid for it overwhelmed me…
I’ve also started writing again. I saw a tweet from a dear friend retweeting “0toxic ” (whom I wasn’t even following at the time) about this “30 days of Hope” project and I immediately knew I wanted to say something. And so I have. And I won’t stop.

In 2014, I’ve come into my own, I’ve made peace with my choices and I know that I want to continue to challenge myself with different tasks known and unknown to me this year. With God helping me, I want to fulfill my dreams one day at time.

Now, that’s my story of hope. Sometimes when you think you’ve run out of options, an answer comes out of nowhere as if to say, hold on, your miracle is on the way…

Do I love being a wife and mom? Most definitely. My heart expands with so much joy when I think of my two Men. It is challenging, but oh so rewarding. Do I enjoy writing? Absolutely. Do I want to bake for the rest of my life? Yes. Maybe not commercially but I do know now that everything has it’s season and I’ve learned to enjoy where I’m at while waiting for where I want to be.

“I am learning everyday to allow the space between where I am and where I want to be to inspire me and not terrify me” Tracee Ellis Ross.

Iengemdoo.

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3 comments on “Day 23: Iengemdoo

  1. “I am learning everyday to allow the space between where I am and where I want to be to inspire me and not terrify me” Tracee Ellis Ross. <—- hope? Yes.

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  2. TM•Lucia says:

    Bliss!

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  3. “With God helping me, I want to fulfill my dreams one day at time.” You have that right. One day, every day, at a time.

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