For they got not the land in possession by their own sword, neither did their own arm save them..
I always say every year is my best year yet. Which is just a testimony to God’s faithfulness in my life even though I disappoint Him over and over 😦 2014 was no different.
Firstly I started earning a salary for the first time in my life. Because of that I was able to help out at home financially and basically I was independent. That made me really proud.
Secondly God opened my eyes to see liars and cheats around me and I was able to cut them off immediately. Although this was hard to accept mostly because I thought I was a really sensitive person and could detect liars from a million miles away,I’m sorta happy because those experiences really humbled me. Now I don’t rely on my supposed ‘wisdom’.
I hope that in 2015, my actions and my life will reflect the belief I have in God. I don’t want to feel His presence only when I’m in worship but also on those long, annoying days that refuse to end and everyone seems to be out to frustrate you. I want Him to hold my lips when I’m about to say something crass/insensitive just because I’m hypoglycemic and overworked.
I hope I’ll procrastinate less and save more of my income.
I hope to vote in the general elections for the first time. Even if there’s a 500-people long queue.
I want to be able to ask God what He thinks and hear answers. This is the year that my mates are preparing for plab/usmle/primaries and I’m sitting here not sure of what direction I want my fledgling career to take. I want to hear a voice that says “this is the way,baby; walk in it”
I want to meet someone that’ll challenge my resolve about not wanting to be in a relationship. This sounds contradictory but yeah..
I hope to stop losing patience with my parents over little things and address the background issues why I’m angry with them. This one go hard..
I want to be able to say ‘no’ to people I like and stand by it.
I hope to start dancing in church. Lol. Really dance. Not the side to side movement I’ve been known for. I tried to during new year’s service but…
I feel like I should have my first adult birthday party this year. I hope I don’t change my mind-silver is a huge milestone.
I’m going to tell the radiologist off.It isn’t nice to waste his time..or mine. The problem is that he isn’t making any coherent moves so I can easily say no. And I don’t want to be the one to bring it up but this going to the movies thing is getting old.
The hardest thing I’d probably have to do in 2015 is let go of a friendship that I feel really connected to on so many levels. But is really wrong for both of us on many more levels.
I really want to leave the shores of Nigeria for the first time this year. It saddens me when I think that if I’d spent less and saved more in 2014, I would have definitely been able to go see my godson before he turns two. Now it’s a huge maybe..
I’ve been blessed all my life and whenever I’ve had a need, the supply almost always appears. I want to be the blessing that others speak of. I want to be the answer to somebody’s prayers. I want to grow each day, learn to tolerate people’s shortcomings (Lord knows I have many), be closer to/less critical of my younger sis and read more non-fiction books.
I want to learn to shape my eyebrows perfectly.
I want to own more practical shoes.
And I want to learn to live heaven-ready.
Have an amazing year people!!
Lord teach me what I do not see..