Day 25: Motunrayo

On the 19th of November 2014, I had a bad experience. It found me walking by the side of the road in Ogidi, Anambra state wailing and talking to myself. A few people passed by me shaking their heads and probably wondering ‘ehya, this small corper don dey craze’. LOL. Ojo buruku esu gb’omi mu. Somehow sha, I found my way to my destination. Next day, I dusted myself, got treated and moved on. Aspa na me now. Iron lady. Superwoman. I started congratulating myself mentally on my unbelievable inner reserve of strength. Then very recently, in the middle of  the night, I heard noise just outside my door. I got up, went to my table, picked up my knife, and put it on my bed side stool. Just in case. Nothing happened of course. In the morning, I woke up, saw the knife and burst into tears. I may be playful, I may be impatient and I may be moody. But one thing I am NOT is violent. The shocker wasn’t that I picked the knife; the shocker was that I KNOW I would have used it. I realized I need help. And I need to HEAL. So this year, that’s what I’m going to do. Heal. Completely.

In 2012, I bashed my dad’s car. Next thing I knew I was registered in a driving school. I finished o, even got my learners permit sef. Its 2015 and I still cannot (will not) drive. This bothers me a lot. Of all my plans I shared on here last year, this is the only one I did not make. This year, challenge accepted.

I Google searched my name again recently, and I am disturbed by the amount of results that search pulled. Too few. Also, nothing on wiki about me. Outrageous! This year, I’m starting the journey to improving Google search results on my name, and a wiki page too. I don’t know how hard it is to get me a wiki page, but I’m about to find out.  I know this means a lot of hard, outstanding work, and I believe I’m ready. That’s my biggest goal for this year, and if I don’t get it this year, I’ll continue next year, and the year after that.

Somehow, I am confident that this year will answer to me. 2014 was good. Very good, if I do say so myself. I accomplished ALL I set out to do (well, except that driving part). But the glory of the latter shall be greater than that of the former, abi? Therefore, Explosion 2015.  I have a couple of projects planned out for the first half of the year that I have started work on. Can’t talk about them just yet, but I am very positive. I also plan to take some certification courses, (started one already), and take stage 3 of an international exam I started last year.   

I started making money last year. But this year, I’m controlling it. Commanding it. I plan to register my craft and make myself some business cards and go PLC. Then I’ll change my BBM name to CEO something something and tension everybody. Hahaha! I’m getting excited just typing this. I hope to do a bit of traveling too. I haven’t decided where just yet, but I will. I’ll put more into my relationships this year; I started last year, but I’ll do more this year. Maybe make one or two good friends off this twitter as well, I heard there are a lot of awesome people hiding behind anonymous accounts and cynical comments. My stand with God was wonderful last year, but this year will be even better, God help me. Cece Winans’ A Heart Like Yours is my motivation.

PreciousHeart Omolaraeni Amajor, you’re crazy and I do not understand what’s happening to your mind these days, but I love you and I am so glad you sauntered into my life that day. That movie you made me watch was crap by the way, so, another one when next I’m home. Happy birthday, Sister. I love the hell out of you!

Well that’s my 2015 in ‘futurespect’. I hope to be here again next year, telling you all of how I accomplished all my goals for this year, God willing.

Happy New Year folks! The best is just ahead.

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2 comments on “Day 25: Motunrayo

  1. preshy says:

    i like your spirit…

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  2. enajyte says:

    Happy New Year Moturanyo. Anambra was home to me for close to ten years so Ogidi jumped at me.

    You do not have a spirit of fear, but of sound mind. I read courage in every sentence. Go on. You’re the boss. You’d have said something about your biz na. Customers are everywhere. lol

    Have a fruitful 2015.

    Shalom!

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