2014 was not what I thought it would be. I had a lot of low moments; I cried, I learnt a lot about life and myself. For me, 70% of the things I hoped for did not happen. However, the high moments even though few, overshadowed the low moments. I got married to my friend of over 10 years. I moved out of Lagos to be with Le hubs. I joined an organization in December 2013, so I had the whole of 2014 to learn and grow. Growth process is never easy but it was definitely worth it. I met people, I learnt to smile even when everything around me was crumbling. Most importantly, I learnt to trust God. You know, you’ve never really trusted if you’ve never been tested. When you are at your lowest, that’s when you know what it really means to trust, to be without a plan B, to put all your eggs in a basket. Ah, yes, I learnt to love and receive love without questions.
In spite of all these, I’m thankful for love, for life and for all things beautiful that God has blessed me with.
So, what do I want out of 2015?
My theme for this year is, ‘to be deliberate.’ Yeah, you got that right. I’m tired of being a shadow of my old self. I’m tired of wanting something and saying another. I’m tired of allowing life to just happen. This year, nothing is going to happen by chance. That is not to say I don’t want to be surprised, pleasant surprises are always welcome. However, I will not sit and wait for it.
I want to be deliberate in helping people. For this, I want to support at least three children this year. I will pay their school fees and buy books and whatever they need in school. I think I’ve found two but if you know this special child that requires assistance, biko holla. firstname.lastname@example.org is the address. Terms and conditions apply though. lol
I want to be happy, deliberately. I want to go out more. Enough of my ‘no time to waste time’ story. Go out I must this year. Whatever makes me happy, that I’ll do.
I want to be more disciplined. The MD/CEO of a Nigerian Bank once said and I quote, ‘the first step to being disciplined is to determine that you will never be late for anything in your life.’ Little wonder these guys are where they are. So, here we go. Out!, you demon of lateness and time unconsciousness.
So this year, I wanna buy me a car. Not just any car o, THAT car. I’ll leave this gist till December. I’ll be back with pictures.
I want to forgive, deliberately. Thank God for God. I don’t hurt easily but I hurt deeply and forgiveness is always an issue. I’ve been praying about this and just this year, I’ve been betrayed and the wound was so deep I thought to myself, ‘I can’t take this’ but I chose to forgive. I just decided to try it out and I realized it is not as difficult as I thought. Another lesson learnt here is when you pray for something, be ready to do your part. How else would God have shown me He was at work in me as regards forgiveness if someone did not hurt me? That way, I had to choose between forgiveness and holding on to the anger and hurt. So in 2015, I choose to walk in forgiveness.
I also want to be able to say I forgive my parents, especially my mum, and mean it. I want to forget about all the things they did not do right and focus on the ones they did well. I want to thank God every day for the blessing of a beautiful family.
I will be serious with my health this year. I’m shedding off some weight and it’s goodbye to the fries and everything unhealthy, including my beloved Ice Tea. I already registered in a gym for weekend workouts.
I will take my writing seriously this year. Excellence they say is not an act but a habit, we are what we repeatedly do. Commitment to my blog schedule is a must. I blog at bukola.okunola.wordpress.com and the blog is centered on my faith. I do mostly articles but this year, I will try out poetry and short stories. God is at work in me and yes, I’m doing this.
I plan to see at least 3 places new places this year. This was inspired by Frances of imperfectlyperfectlives.com. Thank you Frances, I’ll be back with my report.
I also have this ‘thing’ for young girls. It is an avenue where we meet, talk, share and learn. I believe if young girls are empowered with the truth, they will be able to stand tall and be all they were created to be. It breaks my heart to see young girls go after married men. I hope to start this year. I really hope so.
Patience Lord! I’m learning to take life, one day at a time. Patience Dear Lord, I pray thee.
My sisters and I will be having our Girls Night Out every month. Nah, marriage will not take that from me.
I want be a better friend. I want to reach out to people, I will not take the people in my life for granted this year. I will call and/text my friends once in a while, just to say hi.
I plan to get more casuals, enough of the dresses, pants and skirts. Jeans is the way to go in 2015. I also plan to make use of all them fine shoes that I use just for decoration.
Read! I want to expand my knowledge base. I know what I know, but I want to know more. I plan to leave my comfort zone this year and try out new books.
I love multiple births. I have triplet siblings and I love-for lack of a better word-love them. So before the end of this year, I want to be pregnant with my twins. If you can pray for me, biko pray o, whatever you can do, do. Twins it is mehn.
So, Le Hubs has this exam to write this year, I will support him in everything and yes, he will come out in flying colours.
I plan to ENJOY my marriage, in every sense of the word.
In conclusion, I want to know God more. I want to experience Him in a new dimension this year. ‘Oceans’ by Hillsong sums it up.
“…Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my saviour.”
God is at work in me, supplying the strength to do these things. Yes, I can.
So help me God.
Thank you Tokunbo for this platform. Chukwu gozie gi.