Day 15: Ameena

New year resolutions have never been my thing. Growing up, I always wondered why people waited till the start of a new year to bring out that blank page and fill it up with numbers, words and bullet points… However, the last few months of 2015, I suddenly found myself reflecting, needing and wanting; so when I suddenly stumbled on Toxic asking people to join in his 30 days of hope, I saw this as a sign – thank you Toxic for giving me this opportunity.

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Have you ever asked yourself – am I happy?

I’ve always considered myself to be a happy person – like everyone else, I have happy moments in my life… but then one day someone asked me ‘Are you happy?’…

I realized even though all had been well in my life in 2015 – I still needed more and I hadn’t really thought about it until I was asked. Somehow I had spent this year putting the needs of others before mine – most of which I truly enjoyed doing – I just now need time for myself… to focus on my own growth!

“Many persons have a wrong idea of what constitutes true happiness. It is not attained through self-gratification but through fidelity to a worthy purpose.” Helen Keller

As a mum, I guess it’s very easy for you to let your world revolve around others – your needs sometimes seem like nothing compared to that of your child. After all, I am perfectly capable of handling myself in any situation. I need to constantly remind myself that I too am a person – with dreams yet unfulfilled. This 2016, I plan to reclaim parts of myself, one step at a time while also trying to be the best mother I can be for my child.

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If you were asked to describe yourself – what would you say?

I would say I am an…

Artist

Optimist

Nonconformist

I started writing (again) late last year (Check out my blog here. Thanks). I really hope I can grow in my artistic element this year. I still consider myself to be in the ‘Budding Writer’s Association’ (even though some of my friends disagree – thank you for having faith in me).

“I decided that it was not wisdom that enabled poets to write their poetry, but a kind of instinct or inspiration, such as you find in seers and prophets who deliver all their sublime messages without knowing in the least what they mean.” Socrates

There is nothing more liberating to me than my freedom of self-expression, being able to coin words from feelings. This is me; raising a glass to 2016 – putting my work out there, being vulnerable to criticism, meeting other artists and learning from them.

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I took time off work since May 2015 (motherhood and all), and I still have another couple of months before I go back  – I cannot contain my excitement!!!

“Without ambition one starts nothing. Without work one finishes nothing. The prize will not be sent to you. You have to win it” Ralph Waldo Emerson

2016 is my year to re focus on career development. All this time has passed and some of the people I left have moved on to greater things. I feel like I’m going back to a stagnant life I once knew. I had not so good news regarding a couple of changes I was hoping for. However, I stumbled on this verse recently and I felt like it was meant for me at this moment in time.

“And He provides for him from sources he never could imagine. And if anyone puts his trust in God, sufficient is God for him. For God will surely accomplish his purpose: verily, for all things has God appointed a due proportion” Quran 65:3

I will have this framed and I will hang it in my house – so that it will be a constant reminder that I should be patient, for the best things come to those who don’t give up.

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Hmm, this fitfam business is not easy. I’ve never felt the need to be fit or to exercise. I’ve been a size 6-8 all of my teenage and adult life… then comes the whole bun in the oven phase and the scales tell me I went from 53kg to 70kg LOL.

I had never been more depressed in life – watching my body change in ways beyond my own control.

“The human body is the best work of art” Jess C. Scott

I currently weigh 55kg after working my butt off!!! And I plan to stay that way in 2016 – so bring on the burpees, planks, squats – I am ready!

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Friendship!

I don’t think I’ve been the best of friends to some of my friends in 2015. I guess for some part, I got tired of being the one always reaching out. Why could they not reach out too? Too busy?? Well. We’re all busy. We’re all pre occupied. We all have our own things going.

I was angry – but then, I guess got over it. I became ok with not reaching out, not checking in. Then the year went by, and some of my other friends lost their friends to death – and suddenly everything I was angry about seemed minute.

“ The greatest sweetener of human life is Friendship. To raise this to the highest pitch of enjoyment, is a secret which but a few discover.” Joseph Addison

I hope to be a better friend this year. More phone calls, text messages and when time and distance permits, we will have a fun hangout like the good old days. Making new memories while walking down old pathways…

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“You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough.” Mae West

… and do it right I will this year! Living free, pushing myself to be a better and more refined version, taking chances. For every second spent doubting is a second of life wasted.

Raise your glasses guys – this is a toast to 2016… may our dreams be fulfilled, and our dreams accomplished. Hopefully I’ll be here again for 30 days of hope 2016 🙂


I’m in awe. I’ve known Meena all these years and had no idea she writes… and does it so beautifully. Now, me finna go read up her blog and familiarise meself. Bless up.

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6 comments on “Day 15: Ameena

  1. Reblogged this on ameena's musings and commented:
    Got to pen down my new hear resolutions… Also had the wonderful opportunity of sharing it on my friends blog. Do enjoy x

    ….and ofcourse, here’s wishing y’all a wonderful new year !

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  3. The Alaroro says:

    Hey Ameena! Happy New Year. I like how you’ve aligned your goals around things that are important – You, your career, your health and your friends while keeping your family in focus. I wish you the very best this year.
    💜

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  4. Tobi says:

    This is beautiful! I enjoyed reading it thoroughly…
    May all your plans come to pass..

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