My name is Ifeanyi – In my language, it literally means “a difficult thing”. Like an actual impossible thing. That might account for why I am so difficult – or more like difficult to understand or describe. Ineffable. When my mother gets mad or my sister is trying to be cheeky, they say the entire sentence –
Onweifeanyichukwu – Is there anything impossible for God?
My name literally translates as a bible verse. I wish I remembered that more often. Especially when life hits me with those curve balls it likes to throw. It is the 24th day of the year and I have already been faced with difficulty achieving what I set out to do this year.
Live Life Out Loud – Or better put, Live Your Life, Abeg.
I work as a writer on television – and this year, I am finally taking the plunge and directing my own material – I think it has been on my list for the last two years. Well, this is the year. I love my job as a writer and I appreciate being able to do what I love on the platform I have been given. Not everyone can say they are doing what they love and I am so grateful for the opportunity to have stories I write seen in at least 40 countries across Africa.
For with God nothing will be impossible.” Luke 1:37
But this year, I plan to go a step higher – my first plan is to get my project, The Origin Of Love off the ground. It can best be described as a wobbly, mish mash of a higgi hagga, tweedlydumdum, bubbly sort of interview talk show where we go around talking to Nigerian (and maybe some day, generally African) couples still in love after 20 years or more. Their secrets, their ideas, their love stories. You know how there is a constant debate that the generation before us are in loveless marriages? Or women are still in many marriages just because of the children? The plan is to speak bluntly with some of these couples and maybe uncover some truth.
I have already gone through some trauma getting it off the ground. I have cried and been faced with crippling fear. But the idea this year is to do. So next year, when I am writing this, I will hopefully talking about yet another season.
‘With God all things are possible’ (Matthew 19:26b)
The idea is to follow that with a short film or two and maybe squeeze in a web series. I plan to exercise my creative muscle as much as I can. I am done seeing others living life while I remain trapped in a bubble of fear and indecision – this will require exercising the muscle that helps me believe in myself and my talent a little harder. Fingers crossed.
All other stuff – like getting my weight in order – plus, loving my body as hard as I can – which involves dressing to celebrate my love for my body, exercising so I get my happy hormones in, learning to play my guitar, maybe finally learning to ride the bike I’ve had parked in my room for over a year ( it was on my list last year), staying man free (long story) while being deliriously happy – and all the other things that mean I am truly living my life out loud
“I am the LORD, the God of all the peoples of the world. Is anything too hard for me? Jeremiah 32:27